Don’t you wish life was simple? We got what we wanted when we wanted? I feel like that half the time. You know, I probably sound like the typical spoiled, unappreciative, ignorant American. Cause guess what? I have everything I will ever need and more. I want all kinds of things. I want to buy all the fancy camera equipment, I want nap times to be longer than 2 hours so I can just get a little bit of work done, I want to not go over my cell phone bill, I want gas prices to STOP rising, I want my dog to stop running away, I want to be at my wedding weight (HA not going to happen), I want pretty clothes, I want water to taste like it came out of a bottle (yes, tap water tastes funny, another reason why I’m a spoiled american). It’s too easy to want. The harder part is to recognize what we want is what we do not need.
I don’t need a lot of things that I want. And I really shouldn’t consume my mind with things I want. Cause things I want are things I do not need. I know I sound so stinkin repetitive, but I’m telling myself, through my blog (cause that’s what people do now a days) that I do not need ANYTHING. I have everything.
I have a husband. Not just any husband, but a husband who loves unconditionally. He is so patient I’m embarrassed to even tell you the things he tolerates with me. Also, he’s so hot I can’t stand it. (Hopefully that’s okay to say on the blog… but really, go ahead, stalk me on Facebook and look at how hot he is;)
I have a baby. Not just any baby, but a healthy one. I must thank God everyday for that one. Thank you Lord, for entrusting me to take care of Grace.
I have a Savior. Not just any Savior, but a Savior whom I’ve found to call my best friend. His name is Jesus, if you didn’t guess. You should get to know Him. Maybe not Facebook friend him, but you can friend him in your heart. Really though.
I have a house. Not just any house, but a house full of all the furniture I will ever need. We have a bed, Grace has a crib she doesn’t use, but instead sleeps in her play pen (what? why?) Too many computers and lots and lots of cute photos (of course!).
I have a car.
I have WATER. Yes, that’s actually something that not all people have in the world. Whether you drink your water from the bottle, tap, brita, etc. Be THANKFUL cause you’re lucky. I don’t really believe in luck, but you know what I mean. You’re blessed.
I have food. All kinds of organic stuff I think will make me beautiful. I don’t know if it does, but it sure does help me think it!
I have an incredible and supportive family.
I have my health! Can’t forget that one.
So I guess I just need to be reminded, on a daily basis, that what I have right now… is all I will ever need…and more. What I want is just another way to distract me from appreciating what I have. I have so much. Too much. Cause what I have isn’t even mine. This world wasn’t made for me, you, anyone. We aren’t home. We aren’t meant for this world. You know how I know this? Cause we are never satisfied. You may be satisfied after you have that Starbucks latte, or after you go for that nice 10 mile run, or that facial. But I bet you, ten minutes later, you’ll realize you need something else. More of what you just had. Instead of that Grande, you should have gotten that Venti or TRENTA?! WHAT? You know exactly what I’m talking about. I feel this all day. My coffee wasn’t perfect enough, my daughter didn’t sleep long enough, my hair isn’t cute enough, my stomach isn’t flat enough, my husband isn’t home enough, goodness I could go on. SATISFACTION IS OBSOLETE IN THIS WORLD.
At times I wonder, what it would feel like, to live off of what I would need to just survive physically, and give Jesus everything in order to thrive spiritually. It’s been heavy on my heart. I wonder what that means.
All of this was inspired by that song that says
“All i know is I’m not home yet this is not where I belong take this world and give me Jesus this is not where I belong”
Do any of you feel this way? Like every day?