Category Archives: Personal

I’ve written a personal blog post at least 20 times in the past 4 months. I just never hit publish. I’m not sure if I have “writer’s block” or if God was still speaking to me.. but I’ve had a lot to learn the past 11 months since Steven came home. For those who followed my […]

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This blog post is going to be personal. I mean I usually post stuff from my personal life, but this is going to be deeper than that. During the past three months I’ve never felt the feelings of failure as much as I did. Most people ask me “how do you do it all?” Or […]

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The outfits are laid out. The floors are mopped. The fridge is stocked. Pantry filled with your favorite goodies. I bought you new socks, underwear, and undershirts. Yet this all does not feel real. Throughout this deployment I’ve had to close off some emotions. This is how I stay “strong” throughout the deployment. I don’t […]

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Chloe’s cry was in the harmony of my deep sighs. Sighs of frustration. Sighs of exhaustion. Sighs of hopelessness. Then it dawned on me, that I was in a state of discontentment. I was in a state of self pity. I was pitying myself, because honestly, I was running on four hours of broken up […]

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  This is only my second deployment that I’ve experienced, so to say I’m “experienced” would be a bit of an overstatement! But I do have a few things I wanted to say. I struggle, everyday. We all struggle though. I struggle when my husband is gone, away, home, next to me, not hearing from […]

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